in my head

I wrote you a poem
in my head I saw you smile
I saw the beauty of your soul
I wrote you a poem
it had no words but filled with thoughts
I felt you smooth
even the edges that had no sight
I wrote you a poem
I could see your blood flow
feel your heart beat
these thoughts we symbols
I wrote you a poem
in my head

the meaningless talks I had with myself
running around brain cells
every molecule of me in search
I wrote you a poem
I don't know how will you know
because these are just thoughts
while I was writing I was looking at you
your eyes shined so bright
I could see your retina shift
I wrote you a poem
in my head

i'm looking for ways to put this to life
i'm looking for ways to internally rip you
as you already ripped me apart
all my heartbeats are slow
because you're busy taking over
I wrote you a poem
though there's a wall between us
I took a tour inside you
in need of your core
I wrote you a poem
my veins are blocked
my heart is skipping a beat
in my head

there are no words here
there's no proper meaning
because I wrote you a poem
nothing is in its place
my whole being is shifted
I wrote you a poem
it is a quest
and not a question
while I keep writing
while I still crack my brain with thoughts
I keep at it
I enjoy it
I love it
and I stopped questioning it
in my head

I wrote you a poem
and I know one day you will know of it
one day you will feel my heart beat inside of yours
I will not stop
it's not a choice but a blessing
I wrote you a poem
a poem without words
just filled with thoughts
I wrote you a poem
and I know you will want to read it
but because I wrote it on my wall
you will have to infiltrate my soul
in my head

every word
every syllable
every sentence
every phrase
just speaks to you from inside me
I wrote you a poem
I wrote it in thoughts
just to see your soul smile
just to feel your heart beat close
just to let you know
in my head

I wrote you a poem
while you were away I took the liberty
I took to myself to do this
I made it work
I wrote you a poem
in my head.

in my head